how do I turn off the caring??
Ugh. I feel like I'm going crazy, even though I know I'm not.
So I had worked up the nerve to talk to my AH tonight…about the fact that I know he's drinking again, that I know that he's been reading my email and texts on the sly (in an attempt to "get closer", I'm sure), the fact that I don't appreciate the lies or the sneaking, and that's it's time for him to go - and he just passed out in his favorite chair. Even though he's supposedly "sober" - like maybe I won't notice that he isn't?
I know I shouldn't care. And still, since November, he's done nothing but focus on my "mistakes" and missteps, and has totally glossed over his own (because, he says, everyone knows what his are, there's no need to talk about them). I'm definitely not perfect - have said and done things in anger and hurt that I'm not proud of the last few months - but I hate the fact that he thinks he can point a finger at me when his own behavior is so ridiculous. I know I shouldn't have anything to prove - but still, there's a part of me that really just wants to. Ugh - how do I get past feeling like this???