Thank you everyone for your wisdom. I still do on occasion wonder if I made the right decision but deep down I know I did what was best for me. I have fears about my future but I have a strong support system in my family, friends and workplace. I feel very blessed that way. Maybe once the divorce is final that will be where I can take a deep breath and just let it go once and for all knowing I am in control of my future from now on and I only need worry about taking care of myself. I feel sometimes I still need to find out who I am in this world.