wanttobehealthy

There is an event for one of my daughters this weekend that I am hosting but hosting it at a public place. XAH has said (& he is right) that I can't keep him from public places and he will come if he likes. I asked him to allow a peaceful day for our child and please not come but I can't be sure what he will do.

I'm in a full blown panic about this and it's paralyzing me.

I have a million things to do to prepare for this event and can't help but be resentful that not only do I have no one to help prepare everything for it but I might have to deal w mr narcissist abuser showing up and putting on a show for the other parents there.

I have been in tears about this the last two nights and know that I need to just accept it and suck it up bc I can't control whether he shows up or not.

Does anyone have some wisdom to impart?

I've worked hard to make life calmer and peaceful for my kids and I and this is a really special day for my daughter and I don't want the stress that XAH brings to impact my child's day as has happened so so so many times before.

I guess I need to just deal but I'm upset and needed to vent.

Thanks for listening.