My friends dad is a recovering alcoholic 30 years sober. I told him that I honestly wanted to quit. He told me I didn't. I was kind of shocked at his answer. He then asked me how many meetings I've been to. He told me if I truly wanted to stop there is nothing I wouldn't do to stay sober. I've found through trial and error that sobriety is going to be a full time job for a while. I know understand what he was talking about as I sit here on day 2 typing and trying to choke down some toast.