Originally Posted by
Finnie 
This is the first time I have told anyone this ever in my life. Am crying now.
Finnie, if you need to cry then cry. Let it out! Release all that negative energy. Feel it leaving your body. I am so PROUD of you that you finally said something. find a psychotherapist to help you let go of what you feel.
you may have to talk about some of what happened but you don't have to go into detail. Its dealing now with what you feel and how to SHIFT that feeling (sensation) letting it release from your body.
You don't have to relive it. You DO NOT have to go back there!
Its trauma it needs to run its course, and it will. You made a HUGE step posting this.