I have struggled for years. In and out of AA. Honestly have not ever given 100%. Now risk losing my husband and family if I don't get it together. People said this would happen. I truly believe he can not handle me drinking one more time. I am so tired of this cycle. Went to a meeting at noon and going to another at five. Nervous because my old sponsor may be there and I am embarrassed. Not enough to stay away. I feel so much better sober. Day 1 again after messing up yesterday and throwing 9 days away. Thanks for reading.
