My soul is ripping
It hurts. I'm starting to see so much. Past and present. I start to think I'm wrong and making a big deal out of things when something knocks me down. He's working out of town right now. He doesn't do that often anymore but has because of the weather problems. He left Sunday. One daughter has a pageant today and he won't be there. It could truly be that he can't leave. We r just used to him making things happen to be there. We have another (adult) daughter who is having major surgery Tuesday. He said he may not be home then. He's about 4-5 hours away which is nothing for him. In the past he would have told his boss the situation and been home. No matter what!
He is not communicating as much as he used to. That hurts a lot. I do believe we are soulmates. We have been married 29 years. I'm so afraid of the future. I went to al-anon a few times but haven't lately for one reason or another. Most of the meetings are at night later than I can go.