Originally Posted by BlueChair

It sounds like you are afraid to get out there and live life, a part of you may be comforted by all the time spent fixing yourself because its a way to justify putting life, other relationships on hold. Maybe you feel uneasy like life is a volcano and your wanting to run back to the past. Not necessarily to him, maybe to the safety of the pain you once felt. You got to know that pain, but you dont know what lies ahead.