I looked up local AA meetings. There was one at 7:30 am that I missed. There is another tomorrow at 7:30 that I can go to. This is my plan for today, please let me know what you think because obviously I am not handling this well on my own:
1) Going to a workout class this morning.
2) Renting bikes with the family and riding the rest of the day
3) Posting here a lot
4) Reading the Big Book (I have it on my phone)
I also started the sober timer thing because I think I need that accountability.
I want to try to move forward and not keep myself in the mindset of how horrible I am. My husband basically said he doesn't want to talk about my drinking problem because he thinks it is a farce.