Maybe let's start with the ONLY part you can work with?
You.
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Why am I so anxious about this?
Dunno. Maybe because you are doing this WITHOUT first -- getting prayed up, talking with your sponsor, and . . . you know . . . all the rest?
I have no idea, I am just guessing -- but, for me -- generally Anxious seems to indicate:
Not starting with God,
Not talking to my sponsor.
Not following my program.
But when doing all that -- the Path seems to get noon daylight bright clear.