(((Emmy)))
Fear, obligation and guilt (FOG) kept me stuck for almost 2 years. After reading Codependent No More, finding a good therapist, reading and posting here, I will be leaving my husband in about 3 weeks. I am finally handing him his addiction and leaving him to and with God.
We deserve so much better Emmy. Life is too short to settle. Have you considered finding a therapist to help you work through some of this?? It really helped me see what I tried so hard not too.
ETA. Cynical One has a great blog with a lot if great information. Trauma bonding, cycle of abuse, etc. It really gave me a lot of information to process with my therapist.