Originally Posted by
rbragg05 
I always second guess every decision I make and if that decision don't seem to pan out I beat myself up over it, I never really believe what people tell me when they are talking about me I always try to analyze some hidden message that most times isn't even there. I realize that this is an internal problem but I've done it for so long that it has become more like a reflex than an action. I just wish I could find a way to shut this "reflex" off.
Ugh, me too. I fret about what everyone else will think.... Every woman I've dated, in the back of my mind I've wondered "will my friends think she's pretty enough?". Every job I've taken I've thought "will this look good enough to others?". Every apartment I've rented I've thought "will people make fun of me if I live here?" When I confronted my alcoholism and quit drinking, I thought "will everyone think I'm a weak and pathetic individual"?
It's relentless, and exhausting.