I have no clue what is going on today but I woke up and I desperately wanted a drink. There is no good reason, I'm not in more pain today than usual, no extra life stress, nothing. Of course I've stayed sober, I dont' want to drink and I used lots of strategies to stop me going and getting that first drink, the most dangerous one. Still I dont' get why after so long I've suddenly had this really major urge to drink.
It has beens months now since I last drank everything afterall.