Originally Posted by
Sydney1988 
This is F**ked. I'm totally wasted right now. I know what I'm doing to me is bad, but I can't stop. I just want more of the thing that is hurting me. How can I say no when what I want so bad is doing all the pain?
This was where I was this time last week. I KNEW I was swallowing something that was damaging me but the taste of whiskey is very seductive after a few gulps. I could even feel my kidneys getting sore. Resolute50 is right to call it a madness - you're literally mad for the drink, whatever the cost to you.
Hope you get some decent sleep and check in here tomorrow to let us know how you are.