Originally Posted by
Sydney1988 
This is F**ked. I'm totally wasted right now. I know what I'm doing to me is bad, but I can't stop. I just want more of the thing that is hurting me. How can I say no when what I want so bad is doing all the pain?
You are seeing life through the bottle right now pal - and it's a depressant whether we realise it, or not
How about trusting SR and trying to give it a day off tomorrow (you can always tell yourself its just for 'today') and see how you feel when things are a little clearer in your mind?
A good start would be to drink as much water as poss before you go to sleep
