I was talking with my councilor today actually and realized that I do the same thing with practically every aspect of my life. I always second guess every decision I make and if that decision don't seem to pan out I beat myself up over it, I never really believe what people tell me when they are talking about me I always try to analyze some hidden message that most times isn't even there. I realize that this is an internal problem but I've done it for so long that it has become more like a reflex than an action. I just wish I could find a way to shut this "reflex" off.