Hello Zorah, please keep going, you've got some good sober time behind you. Could you go to a meeting or a therapist and be as honest as you can with what's going on? I'm struggling at the moment with anxiety, I had left Aa but just gone back and was asked to do a chair. I felt very safe at that meeting and said that yes, sobriety has really helped my mental health but I talked about struggling. Everyone in the room shared back and made me feel very loved, there was even another Aca ( like me) who talked about our struggles to feel normal. I hadn't realised others had been through the same.
Reach out for help, and you may even find you help others in the process. Please keep going x In the past I have also listed out all the negatives drink did to me.... It always beats the pros by a mile. Let us know how it goes.