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Old 02-08-2014, 07:27 AM
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jjkjlklj
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Thank you very much for all of your replies. I've never known anybody who has the same problem as me, and it really does get to the stage where I'm counting my blessings but wondering why the hell I have to be landed with this one curse. It's horrible.

I know my life would be a million times better if I wasn't drinking, but, despite that, the thought of giving up terrifies me. I'm arguing with myself constantly and the only way to make it stop is to drink. It's not rational. In fact, it's like being in an abusive relationship with somebody who I really love.

I know all of this, but I don't know what's going to get me to stop. I don't want to die young from alcoholism, but that's the way it's going.

It's really nice to hear from you all who have managed to fight and beat this. I can't see a way out - I just feel like I'm more addicted than anybody else. Which is stupid and just another excuse!!
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