DD13 gets really nervous when I go out with a friend and have a glass or two of wine. I was just out doing same and she actually walked in to get me (!)
I think life is returning to a new normal, and sharing a 2dl carafe with a friend is kind of nice. I have to fight that resistence some of you refer to, regarding horrible associations with the stuff. But I think it is worth trying to get over it. This is my life, and xah doesn't need to be in my head every time I go out with friends.