Much like an alcoholic can't undrink their booze.
right, but if they want to RECOVER, they QUIT and get rid of the REST of the booze and then don't buy anymore.......THEN they get into some type of support program and work out their issues, SOBER.
just sayin......you seem to have a lot of reasons why you have to stay right where you are which is perfectly fine. miserable is a choice!