And the worst part is, I still love, miss, and remember him, his real self.
this IS his REAL self....this is who he is TODAY. otherwise it's like remembering the unlit match and overlooking the fire it started that burned the house down.
definitely have others with you when you go to get your stuff....you could even call the police and see if they will escort you. the sooner you are extracted from this toxic and dangerous person the better.