Midnight-
I have been thinking about your previous post for a couple of days.
I don't think you are pleased with your "behavior" around your feelings, but I am please that REGARDLESS of what you think....you did not take on the shame onto yourself of your feelings.
My therapist once told me that in recovery we are often a pendulum swinging. We swing from one extreme (where we started) to another....eventually finding a happy middle ground. It is still messy, yucky and hard in that swinging, but it is sign of recovery that we are out of our stuck, hard ways.
So maybe you did not execute like you wanted, but you did change something. Maybe that is what is happening around stuff with your mom too?
You are where you are, you feel what you feel, and you are moving forward with this recovery stuff.....