I will not give into the urge to look anymore. It doesn't serve me any good. I guess I just wanted to see him really hit rock bottom so he can turn his life around and realize how terrible he's made others in his life feel. I guess I will leave that up to time. Eventually he will feel that. If not then I guess I won't have to worry about it anymore.
I think others have provided some great insight to your questions.
Sometimes.....in life.....for more reasons than just addiction......we let people go and move on with our own lives.....wish them the best or pray for them......and live our own lives to the best of our ability. And that's ok.
gentle hugs
ke