Welcome friend! This is the place if you want to quit. It was asked above but I ask again because it was so important to me to figure out... what is your plan? What worked last time when you quit for 3 years?
It sounds like you would run out and buy a bottle if you could, and that isn't a plan, that is being forced to not go buy a bottle, and being forced to quit tonight isn't going to help you tomorrow
This site and member cans tho, share some and a plan can be made.
I will tell you tho, after work on the way home haas been the hardest part, mostly habit I guess because once I get home and on to other activities I have been fine. But still, even today I had cravings all the way home and it takes all I can not to go buy some booze. What i keep in mind is as soon as I do, I have sealed the fate of the rest of my evening, and most of the next day...and I have done that enough time for something new.