Hard to sort crazy out, isn't it?
That was likely why you posted it.
All the Best to your mind and heart.
=======
As far as reading. Ran across (ok, went looking) for a drawing Mrs. Hammer did.
Had all the rest of us on one side of a Mountain. She was all alone on the other side.
On the Mountain separating us was written "All The Lies I Have Told."
See, they know. They just cannot face or find the way out.