I'm ok guys, the anxiety attacks are a new thing and the result of what I recently experienced. I dont' want to go into it, just something I witnessed and that I have to deal with. After what I saw I may be having some PTSD stuff. But it's too early to say that's what I'm looking at.
I was in full shock for a day after all this, it's actually kind of upsetting to see the messages I sent to someone on this forum I trust because I just repeated myself over and over, the comments are very blank, classic shock. Still I'm working through it.
As I have said before, without being able to admit things to this forum I would have just ended up drinking. So thanks to everyone, and the persons I have contacted privately know I have an extra thanks aimed at you.