I'm still having a hard time trusting my husband. I know I don't have to but I am trying. Things get better and maybe it's not as fast as he or I would like but I'm not at a stand still and that means something. I had to quit focusing on it, it was controlling my life. So I gave up on trying to figure out how to do it and why I shouldn't and if I could. Today he didn't mess up, and even if he did there would be nothing I could do to stop him. I think I get in trouble thinking about us, I get more positive results working on us. What is going to make me feel better with him right now. A talk, a hug, space...
I don't want to spend my life doubting him, so I try not to. I don't want to think he's hiding something so I quit looking. If something is a miss I will know in time so why drive myself crazy in the mean time? I trust myself to make the right decision when it comes to him. Have I always? No but I learn something new every day.