Dear SR friends,
I am going to ask some help to my friends I can not do it.
you were right I thought I could but is getting worse and worse.
I will have to swallow my pride and go to some **** AA I think NA is for drug abuse... and I am in the middle of everything... I really do not want to go. Lets see If I got the ovaries to go...
I keep on mixing and at the end something will happen.
I only want to get home and get un-conscience and relax all the anxiety.
instead of doing something constructive.
I do not know if I want to be sober... but this is no way of living.
I am awake at work with coffee and as soon as I get out I am looking for ways to get of the wagon. I can not get up in the mornings... god.
Just to let you know I am going to try to get some help.
I can not do it!!!
Love you lots and thank you for putting up with me
