Gracey,we have watched you grow stronger and more self confident,over the last year. Remember all the times your AH has used emotional abuse on you and your two older kids? He knows this is wearing you down and he can push all the right buttons to get you where he wants you to be. It all most like a police-INTERROGATION.
Know you have phoned the police in the past over your AH. Please don't be afraid to phone them again to get the help you need.
This is a good time to look at yourself and your needs as a person. Can you cope with the continual emotional abuse from an alcoholic husband? How important is taking care of yourself? You have a right to take care of yourself and kids.
Remember, your marriage vows were for “better of worse”, not “to be battered or worse”.
Alcoholics are emotional batterers. They deny the horrible things they say or do, when drinking, partly because they may have blackouts, but partly also because they don't want to have to face themselves. Your husband is manipulating you. He dumps his frustrations on you by yelling. You are on edge, because you never know when the abuse is coming. You then react, and he then punishes you for getting upset over his upsetting behavior. You end up taking on the responsibility for his abusive and crazy-making behavior. A never ending cycle.
Gracey,I have grown very fond of you. Don't want to see you or your children get hurt. Your AH and his Mum are in denial of all. Until they get the help they need....all this mess will go around and around. Probably for years and years. Only the abuse will get worse..after the kids leave.
You deserve so much more in life...stick to your guns. It will be rough..but you will make a life of happiness for your family....without AH.
Please keep posting all your thoughts. Worry about you when you don't post.