Honestly - Lizatola you are not alone. I have always said I will worry myself into an early grave but I have got a little better as I have got older and managed to 'detach' a little from my AH - the number of times I have watched him passed out and convinced myself he was in an alcoholic coma when he was just drunk....I worry dreadfully about my feline family too but I do think knowledge is powwer, and the more I read about breeding/feline health the better I feel but yes, I still worry. I guess you need to talk things over with someone you trust......that has helped me but deep down I think we are worriers or not and you and I are in that camp although hopefully you can stop it taking over your life which I encountered int he spring when mega stressed.