I agree. As a 1st time alcoholic in recovery (I was a dry drunk) I can understand why he has no feeling and is empty emotionally, but that doesn't give him a free pass to walk away from your child. Also, I think it's a sign he is heading for a relapse because all of his walls are up and armed. He is pushing people away because that is what we do. Make him accountable to be a father. It's not right or an excuse but he is shutting you and your child out and is probably lying to his family. You can't fix him, but you can fix your situation by being the strong mother everyone here knows you are. It took a lot of courage to post this here and trust that what are saying is the truth