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Shirt423 I still feel so much anger that after everything I did he couldn't be there for me.
I think this is what you need to let go of. If you can accept that he couldn't be there, and never will, the anger will leave you because it serves no purpose. As long as you continue to wish things were different, you will be resentful. Another way to look at it: You've been dealt a crappy hand (like the rest of us). The key is learning to play the hand, rather than just wishing you had different cards! Things do get easier.