Hey Dominica. Both in same position and I've no idea what to do. I'm completely monogamous and trustworthy sober but after a heavy night out I just lose control and blackout. This happened once before in my last r/ship and happened again on Friday. I feel like I need to stop drinking but feel a fraud on here! Don't know whether to tell them or if I'd only be doing that to make myself feel better. It will he hard not to drink socially as everyone around me does but plenty of other things I can do.....right now I'm just so depressed that I've screwed everything up.