Originally Posted by Dominica2

I have betrayed the person I love most in the entire world. What is bad about it, is I don't even remember doing it because my dumb ass was in a blackout. This seals the deal. I can't keep doing this to him and to myself. I am not that person when I am sober. I am not a complete narcissistic ******* until I start throwing that poison down my throat. As soon as I drink I become the most selfish person on the face of the earth. This does it. I am done. I cannot believe the lengths of my stupidity. I need to get this under control and now before I lose the love of my life to a liquor bottle. Alcohol WILL NOT win. I wont allow it to control me anymore.