Today...Saturday, December 28, 2013
Today...I acknowledge that the telephone has been used as a tool to control me and that I have also used the phone to attempt to control, to "remind" my RNAH that I'm here, I'm home, I'm waiting for him. Today...though my fingers are itching to dial his number...I won't call. I cannot control the fact that he is with his married girlfriend. I cannot control the fact that not using does not really mean "recovery". I cannot control his perceptions or actions. I CAN focus on healthy behaviors for myself. It sucks and it hurts, but I have to look forward and ahead to my destination - a healthy life.