I'm sorry cj for the crap he's done to you. I'm going through a dark time myself right now. MT xabf left me homeless & broken while he went to rehab
he never kept in touch like he said he would. before he went, he'd say awful things to me BC I wasn't working at the time & it's def been a rough battle to say the least. I wish you well in life and just take comfort in knowing that you aren't alone!