Hi and welcome Tongue - you really reached back for this thread lol.
I think it's useful to 'play the tape through' and think past the 'getting amped up to go out, take drugs and see what happens type thing'...if your experience is anything like mine some pretty bad things happened and I think it's worth our while to remember that.
Basically it takes time - it takes time for us to build a new life and time for us to work out who sober us really is.
I literally can't remember the last time I had time to be bored - fufullment will come.
How long have you been sober?
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