Hi thanks for the welcomes.and yep u spot on stayin sober is all i got.but what a powerful thing it is.i get thru nxt few days n rest b rite.same to everyone else.bein an alchy is such misery n hard work to maintain when drinkin stayin sober easy as owt really in grand physics of things.happy xmas eve to one n all.postin from my fone so takin me a while to read things but if anyones thinkin a few yrs abstinance n u can drink well good luck to u vut i wouldnt risk it.not worth it.i worked so hard in my ten n half clean yrs n threw it all away by drinkin n openin up the can of worms that goes with it.i sure i only put up with my violent ex partner as an excuse to drink n i know he 'groomed' me for his own reasons i wontcmention on ere.thanks for the welcomes