Iam on the lease, my children & I. Prior to this incident, I talked to her about me leaving eventually & being more independent. She replied asking me if I wanted to be head if household & that she didn't want me to leave. I told her that I wasn't sure & I'd let her know. So idk. As for my ex... I meant that I spent more time & energy trying to leave him alone then I do when he's around. That leads me to believe that me leaving him alone was more about him & not me. I need to shift my focus of seperation on me, & my emotional health. However, that isn't my truth right now. I want it to be. But it isnt. Ugh. Am I making any since? Anywho. Thanx to everyone that have helped. Your opinions are honest & helping me see this for what it really is.I'm not there yet. But I will be. Pray for me. It's gonna be a long road.