Originally Posted by EndGameNYC

I don't know...What I'm reading here is that the two of you are continuing to romance each other in ways that feel familiar. Your running monologue about "my abuser" is beginning to feel like reading a twisted romance novel.

Your continuing to refer to this man as "my abuser" grants him a rarefied position in your thoughts and, well, in your life. And in this thread. To the extent that you continue to engage him from a distance -- phone number blocked or otherwise -- you're endorsing and collaborating with him in his abuse.

It's time that you started doing things to take care of yourself that don't include monitoring and reporting on your abuser's whereabouts and behaviors. Like getting help with your alcoholism.