That does sound like quite a lot. I was on Ativan 2mg for 5-7 yrs? Not sure. I drank like a fish during that time, too. I have been sober for almost 2 yrs minus a 2 day binge in March. I have been off Ativan for over a month & rarely have symptoms. It takes time for your body & CNS to heal but it gets better w each passing day.
Hang in there.
It does get better.
Congrats on 100 days!