Originally Posted by
bird13 
It is truly amazing how we know things, understand them, yet it still takes time to internalize the truths about this disease. This time I just needed to vent. I'm awAre what's happening here and have worked hard to get to this point. I've changed many bad behaviors and feel better overall, but sucks to see he is worse. Gross.
You've grown, he hasn't. You're doing an excellent job of staying calm and taking care of yourself. Keep the phone off if you want to. You don't need to read a barrage of nasty texts or hear mean messages followed by "I love you". It's f-ed up and it sounds like you know that you just can't put up with it anymore.
Wishing you strength and healing.