Each meeting will have a different feel - try several different ones if possible. I think you will learn in time that you will love the acceptance you get and there will be someone different bringing the topic for the meetings each time. You never really know what will be the topic of the day...Speaker meetings are great to attend because you will hear the speaker tell their story of what they have been through and what lead them to Alanon and how they apply alanon to their lives and the difference that it makes once you start focusing on yourself - it really is amazing. I have learned that once I started changing - things got better, and I never would have known to do that had it not been for Alanon.
And if you decide that Alanon isnt for you - there is a world of wisdom in this forum!
I am sorry for what brought you here, but I'm glad that you are here now!
(((hugs)))