Dear AF and BnB, you both are so wise. And i sincerely mean that as a compliment. I have been wondering if I have become hardened in the trust department, defiantly weakened. I used to be be so strong, believe what most people told me (within reason) trusted my family and loved ones, especially my children. Then one day, this past July, BOOM!! My world exploded, I don't even know myself anymore. I so want to fix what is missing in me, I fear that time is going to answer that one. Time and tons and tons of support. I never thought a loved one would lie, steal, call me names and leave me alone with my mind. At least I can see now that I'm not alone in this world of addiction and demons. TF