Go, Pippi, go!!!!
I don't think I've commented much on your threads as I really have no experience for your situation, though I've often read them and felt your pain. You have always sounded very strong to me, and I felt like SR was the place you really let off your steam & raged at your A and the world as need be. Hey, that's what it's for. I always had the impression you knew what needed to be done, just weren't there yet.
Good for you, I know I'm rooting for you as I believe most (if not all) of SR is too!!