I know what you mean. I felt immense releif when I finally accepted I could never drink again and needed to address how to do just that. Beats worrying about things you can't control. I am only 2 months sober but the change is amazing. Waking up without a hangover almost feels decadent as I have been hungover or drunk for 15 years. The first week is the hardest especially when you start to feel better and your hangover memory fades. I wish you all the best.