I know. I am really stuck being angry and resentful to be in this place. I guess I have a superiority complex in a way. I also think, I am 38 years old and now after all these years I am in ALANON? How did this happen?? I know nobody wakes up and wants to be addicted and I didn't grow up wanting to need alanon and I know I do. But I just stuck in a place of "not me" "why me" Nobody in my realm would expect this. I guess I kept up a good front, right? everything is also fine with me. fine fine fine. Well it wasn't and it isn't and I'm having a tough time getting out of my own way here.