This extreme exhaustion is due to school, pain, and stress. I will feel better. The health stuff will sort itself out one way or another. I want to be healthy and productive. I am productive, but I guess I need time with my health. I did manage to get the dishes done, load up the laundry, shower, food shop, and then fill the sink back up with dishes due to making dinner. The American life is go go go go go. I need a long overdue vacation.
You know what I would do if I won the lottery? I would rent a cabin somewhere on an Island and rejuvenate, walk to the farmers market and back. Sleep in the middle of the afternoon. Wake up and shower in the warm ocean water. Stay sober. Eat Mangoes. I would take a backpack and that would be it. Unplug for a few months. I think I need to make some changes. Serious energy changes.