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Old 11-19-2013, 07:46 AM
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Thumper
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Aw Florence. I hear ya. I'm not alone for the holidays - kid are always with me - but I am feeling so lonely and alone too. As a matter of fact - I've spent most evenings lately searching and reading past threads here on that subject.

I wish I had some advice to mitigate it. I don't know how. I'm not physically alone because my kids are always here but I feel so lonely. I do not have another adult to share things with, plan with, to help, to say nice things to or hear them from, to sit next to. I just don't. I kinda just want to sleep through it all. I guess I just have to accept this is where my life is right now. I'm sick of it though. Holidays just add to the feeling sometimes.

Not at all helpful but wanted to let you know I got it and that you aren't alone. I fight so hard to not let all that fear back in - fear that I just don't have what it takes (whatever that is) to get that kind of life. All those tapes and loops. It is always so much work to keep them from playing in my head.
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