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Old 11-15-2013, 05:15 AM
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Hawkeye13
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I think the addict inside does chill when it really gets that you finally mean it.

It has for me. I was so shocked by the depth of my relapse and how terrible with detox was due to kindling, that I decided that was it for good and ever, with no little "maybes" or exceptions for drinking again.

I meant and I mean it, and boy, the AV made a half-a$$ effort and has really backed off since then. I finally feel that this can, with continued vigilance, be over for me. I go days sometimes without even thinking about drinking or not drinking. That's a first.

So there is light at the end of serious intention and commitment. That's not to say that I don't / won't have moments of weakness and stress, but the longer I am sober the less I feel that Mr. AV can get in the driver's seat.
It's worth working towards :-)
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